Haven't had much to say lately. I guess my thoughts have not been running as deep as I would like! :)
Still plugging away at trying to get up early everyday to spend some time with my Savior. Often I am just very tired and have to try to force myself not to fall asleep reading. I am relying on God's love and not my expert performance I can tell you. Being faithful in the dailiness of life is what He wants from me and it is what I am striving for. To persevere in meeting with Him no matter what I feel like and to live out His Word by serving my family and friends is what I am working toward. Coming to maturity isn't easy. I have operated by how I feel too long. It is a hard habit to break.
So my 'self-talk' has changed these days. Instead of saying, "I don't feel like it...", I am trying to say, "It doesn't matter what I feel like, this needs to get done. Now hop to it!" Instead of thinking, "I'm bored.", I try to say to myself, "It doesn't matter that you are bored, just start a task and work through it without dwelling on your feelings toward it." Instead of complaining, I try to repeat Philippians 2:14 to myself, "Do everything without complaining or arguing." I guess this is my attempt to "Take every thought captive to obey Christ." (2 Corinthians 10:5)
My children are always looking forward to the day when they don't have anyone else to boss them. A lot of days I wish I had someone to boss me and make me do what I should. Unfortunately, I am the one who has to boss me and some days I am the enemy! Thank You, Lord Jesus that You are not done with me yet and that You will carry the good work You began in me on to completion! (Phil. 1:6) Thank You that though I cannot do the good I want to do all the time, You are at work in me and You are helping me to make progress. (Romans 7; Phil. 2:13,4:13; Habakkuk 3:19-20)