"But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you..." 1 Corin. 12:9

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

Grace Journey

The Lord is re-decorating my brain big time right now.  He revealed to me how legalistic I have been, mostly with myself, I think. He is tearing down wrong thoughts and pasting in right ones.  My main problem was not understanding how deeply grace effects my life.  I kept hearing double-speak from Christian teaching that fogged over the golden grace road.  He is opening my eyes and setting me free! I'm so grateful and excited.

The main vehicle of this journey toward grace living has been the teaching ministry of Dr. Andrew Farley of Church without Religion.  He has the gift of sloughing off all contradictory teaching and shining a clear light on God's Gospel of Grace toward us. So many teachings and Bible passages that I have been confused about are being illuminated while false teachings are being rejected.

I'm OK!  And I'm excited about that.

Jesus plus nothing!!!


Tuesday, January 19, 2016

The Confession from Beth Moore's Children of the Day Study

The Confession

by Beth Moore

I am not in control.

I cannot control all my people.

I cannot control our situation.

Even when I want what is best,
I cannot control the outcome.

I cannot make people behave.

I cannot make people believe.

I cannot make people be strong.


He alone knows the end from the beginning.

He alone knows how this thing will turn out.


And I agree to see my fight for control as what it really is:
a screaming testament to my distrust,
because I'm saying to God,
'You are not controlling this.'

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Quiet Trust

I read a poem a friend shared around Facebook yesterday.  It is by a pastor whose wife and baby died leaving him 3 small children.  He wrote it during a sermon he heard.  You can read the poem's story here.

"He Maketh No Mistake"

My Father’s way may twist and turn
My heart may throb and ache,
But in my soul I’m glad to know,
He maketh no mistake.

My cherished plans may go astray,
My hopes may fade away,
But still I’ll trust my Lord to lead,
For He doth know the way.

Tho’ night be dark and it may seem
That day will never break,
I’ll pin my faith, my all, in Him,
He maketh no mistake.

There’s so much now I cannot see,
My eyesight’s far too dim,
But come what may,
I’ll simply trust and leave it all to Him.

For by and by the mist will lift,
And plain it all He’ll make,
Through all the way, tho’ dark to me,
He made not one mistake.

- A.M. Overton, 1932

WOW! A great summary of what I am praying God brings my faith to.  I have been praying for several years now with a dear friend that she and I would have the default of trust and peace.  This poem is right in line with that.  We are both grateful that God is indeed doing his sanctifying work in us and leading us to that place.  Now I am praying to add worship to my default list...

"Then Job arose and tore his robe and shaved his head and fell on the ground and....

This verse is Job's response to when everything was taken from him.

After the first part of the verse one would expect other 'w' words to come from his mouth.  Words like wept, wailed, or whined.  But no...it was WORSHIPED!

Worship is so counter-intuitive, unexpected, and super-natural.  Worship was Job's default.  And Paul and Silas' when they worshiped bound in prison.  Oh that it might be mine.

Thursday, November 13, 2014

2014 is nearly over!

Woah!  Only 1 1/2 months to go. 

With a freshman in college, a senior in highschool, and 2 homeschooled eighth graders, I pray for wisdom daily.  (Which, of course, is different from the rest of motherhood how?) 

Christmas projects/presents season is upon me.  Plus the usual household running stuff, exercise, and church ministries.  Yet, the Lord is with me.  I feel peaceful in the midst of the busyness for the most part.

Besides the busyness of life, my thoughts are turning toward passion for the Lord, coming alive by working out His purposes for my life.  I don't know where these thoughts are going to land yet, but I'm going to let them stew around, brewing in prayer.

I've been reading Christine Caine's Undaunted.  That's enough to stir anyone up!  I love her passion for the Lord and for loving people in real, life-changing ways. 

Monday, February 17, 2014

My Testimony

Hello, my name is Lezlie.  I'm the daughter of a redeemed alcoholic. 

I grew up in the country with very few friends.  I was lonely quite often. When my dad got sober, he started hauling my mom and me to church.  I had been a few times before that with a friend or grandparent, but it was all foreign to me.  They would read Bible passages and ask me questions, and I did not know what they were talking about or how to answer.  I was not interested in going at all when I started. 

Over time, the LORD melted my heart toward the people at church and toward Himself.  I understood that I was a sinner, that I needed a Savior if I wanted to go to Heaven, and that His Name is Jesus.  I wasn't all that resistant to those ideas; I just didn't want to give up my free time and TV watching addiction to spend it in a church listening to boring sermons.

I don't remember when that changed exactly.  God worked on my heart over time.  I just remember coming to the place where I really wanted a best friend who was accessible all the time and God could offer that to me.  My 1st 2 prayers were for Him to be my best friend and to make me a bold person who was not afraid all the time.  We've been working on our relationship and my fearfulness ever since.

As a child, I would hide behind my mother any time we were out around people.  I would not go ask for ketchup at McDonald's because I would have to talk to someone.  I would not run track or sing in the choir because someone might look at me.  I had very few friends and no one really close to me most of the time.

Today, I still struggle with boldness.  It is still a challenge talking with people I don't know, but I can do it without too much struggle most days.  I am singing on stage at church in our worship team.  It's hard to keep my thoughts on God and singing to an audience of One, but I keep trying.  And I have A LOT of great friends.

AND...He's not done with me yet!  He has been giving me 'new songs' to write words and music for.  He's been challenging me to share them in small ways.  Now I think He wants me to get brave enough to finish one to share at church.  It's hard work, but I love it.  I love how all the songs He and I have written speak out my life and heart intertwined with His and how deeply they minister to and teach me every time I sing them.  They are a great reminder of my progress: spiritual, social, musical.  And I think all Christians are on a journey that encourages others when shared.

I am blessed to be a daughter of the King of Kings, a sister to the Lord of Lords, and a companion to the Holy Spirit.  I am blessed that He laid down His life so I could be set free.  Set free from hell.  Set free from sin.  Set free from spiritual strongholds, like fear.

Jesus is my life, my Lord, and my best friend.  I love Him more than I will ever be able to express in words, spoken or sung.

Friday, October 25, 2013

Ch.3 Finding Love That Won't Fail Even When We Do

Proverbs 36:7  "How priceless is Your unfailing love, O God!  People take refuge in the shadow of Your wings."

Gleanings from Renee:

"You've been trying to earn your value in everything you've done.  But you will never find the love you long for in anyone or anything but Me.  I AM the unconditional love you are looking for."  p.51

"Until our hearts find complete security and significance in God's unconditional love, we will never be satisfied....Those of us who struggle with insecurity and find ourselves in the 'shadow of doubt' often get there because we are seeking our validation in people's opinions, our worth in accomplishments, and our identity in excessive commitments."  p.52

"You see, God put a longing for unfailing love in our hearts because He knew it would lead us back to Him.  Only God's unfailing love will fill and fulfill the desires of our hearts.  It is the deepest thirst of our souls.  Until God's love is enough, nothing else will be."  p.55

"By recognizing and replacing our emptiness with the fullness of God's promises, we drink the gift of living water."  p.60

"Jesus came to give us more than salvation, He wants us to experience complete satisfaction in Him....Salvation is a one-time decision, but finding satisfaction in Christ and living in the security of His promises is a daily process."  p.61

"We were made for love that isn't measured by our last accomplishment but marked by God's measureless grace."  p.62


It is SO easy for me to measure who I am or how much I am worth by how much I accomplish at home or by how much I pour myself into serving at church.  In my crazy humanity, I do things because I love Jesus while at the same time longing for a pat on the back.  I want Him to get full recognition, but my flesh wants recognition as well.  It is a continual battle between trying to do things for an audience of One and laying down my deep-seated need for approval. 

Why is anyone's approval but His even necessary to me?  This is the question I'm praying through and seeking an answer for.  I am praying for the knowledge that He is ENOUGH to descend from my head to my heart.

My prayer is to be so full of Jesus' love and love for Jesus that service just occurs and my flesh is crucified.    I want my actions to be guided only by what pleases Him.  And I want them to be motivated by love for Him, not by trying to 'earn' His favor.  I'm afraid this battle won't be over for good til I go home, but conquering the need to find my worth outside of Christ is certainly my goal.

Like C.S. Lewis says, "Don't shine so others can see you.  Shine so that through you, others can see Him."

Monday, September 30, 2013

God's Love is Perfect!

1 John 4:18-19  "There is no fear in love.  But perfect love casts out fear, because fear has to do with punishment.  The one who fears is not made perfect in love."

Wow!  Am I sure not perfect!  Overcoming fear of punishment is something I continually struggle with.  Whenever I do something wrong, I think I'm more concerned and scared about whether or not I will get in trouble with people than I am about the wrong thing I did and displeasing Him Whom I love.  That is not right!

Not that I am not sorry for whatever it might be.  But, I get all worked up because of the fear of punishment.  I'm supposed to not be worried about what 'man' can do to me.  Hmmm.

I am trying to get to the bottom of why I do this, with the Lord's help.  I know all the intellectually correct answers, but I know the truth hasn't found its way throughout the deep recesses of my heart yet. 

Today, as I've been thinking and praying about this, I realized it is a symptom of unbelief.  I am not believing God's Holy Word as I should.  It is His promise that I am forgiven  (1John 1:9; Eph. 1:7-8).  It is His promise that He will never leave me or forsake me (Joshua 1:5,9; Hebrews 13:5b).  It is His promise that He will help me (Hebrews 13:6; Isaiah 41:10; Psalm 121).  He never said he would only help me if I never sin or make a mistake.  So I should be able to walk in CONFIDENCE.  

I need to whip out these promises and stand on them when the accuser plagues my mind w/ my sins and/or mistakes.  Or, when I'm beating myself up, which I have a bad habit of.

I hope, as I get into the new study, that I will grow in all these areas.  That is my sincere prayer.  I'm on a journey, and it's in progress.  I'm so glad He's promised to see me through to completion (Phil. 1:6)!!!

I am intent on VICTORY and FREEDOM!!!

So many Christian blog posts seem to be about how a problem concluded and is over.  I don't find that mine get 'over' so much as that I just keep growing.  But I press on...